Update on Baby!

So far the doctor says everything looks fabulous and they way it should! Which is always good!

I get to have my "Big Ultrasound" in about 1-2 weeks and I can't wait to find out the gender of my baby. I would love a boy- BUT John has already chosen the name for the child if it is going to be a boy...lame I know...so I am secretly hoping for a girl. Because we haven't decided on a name yet. :)

I really want to find out sooner, but I only have one request form thing...lame I know...but oh well. It's still rather exciting!  And one thing about this pregnancy is you can't even tell that I am pregnant! Crazy! My neighbor was somewhat the same way with her youngest. so I know its not particularly a bad thing.

Thinking... divorce and adoption

Well things with John and myself haven't been great, our moods right now are conflicting and I believe that we just don't mesh well together. Personally I think that it's time for us to separate and go our own ways.

With that said, seeing I am almost 13 weeks along, (will be tomorrow) I have an appointment today at about 3 to go to LDS Family Services and talk to them about what may be best for me to do right now. (As in is adoption the best thing for my baby right now) Which I personally believe it to be. I fear that John will take his anger out and scare, frighten, and in a way abuse our child without realizing it that is IF we stay together and IF I decide to keep my child.

I feel like no one really understands where I am coming from, with this and they still continue to say that I need to push on a bit longer, yet I fear that if I do things will only get worse. Which so far they have.

First Ultrasound at 11 weeks

here is our first ultra sound it does show the due date
and all. I am way stoked... ♥

I saw and met my doctor for the first time last Wednesday (November 23, 2011). She was worried about if my due date was correct or not (because I am so small especially at 11 weeks along) So she brought in the portable ultrasound machine, and low and behold my due date was just one day off. (I am really due on June 13, 2012.)

My doctor also said that everything so far has looked either "great" or "fantastic!" so that's always a plus especially since this is my first pregnancy. I think that John is slowly but surely getting to the point where he may be getting excited as well. He has asked my mother if she would make him and his two brothers a Dallas Cowboy's bibs. So that's a start right? He even said last night that he isn't thrilled with the situation but he cant wait to hold our child. So that's great! I am really glad that he is coming around ♥

He also thinks we'll be having a boy (which I would love to have, but he has already chosen the name without really asking me if I had any specific names I would like to name a boy if we were to have one.) But I am also secretly wanting a girl, only because we haven't entirely chosen a name for a girl if we do have one.  So if we have a girl, I'll at least have a say in the name.

We'll keep you updated with Doctor's visits and the news we receive from them.

♥/The Rice's

6 weeks far along

Well I am just barely 6 weeks pregnant. And JR is still pretty mad at me. In my personal opinion if he cant grow up and help take some responsibility in this then we will have to get a divorce. For one I am just sooooooooooooooo annoyed and frustrated by the way he has been treating me.

I even saw my therapist yesterday and she basically said "he is being abusive..." I wouldn't ever be able to live with myself if I had an abortion...and he just doesn't get that...  and he's saying that it's ALL of MY fault for getting pregnant.

Well Hopefully he will grow up and take some responsibility in his life for once.

P.S. I have my 1st doctors appointment for baby next week on the 27th so exactly a week from today :)

Baby on Board

Yesterday I decided to take an HPT (a home pregnancy test). The result is.......We're having a baby!

JR and I later went out and about and I guess he knew something was up since I was all happy. So when I told him he kind of figured out that was the reason why I was so happy all day.

I have been pregnant for a grand total of 4 weeks and 3 days. Honestly I am very excited! But unfortunately JR is not...Which is kind of confusing to me. Seeing most husbands (in my opinion would be ecstatic...yet he is not) Which is rather sad I think.

Well this will be a blog about my progress with my baby. I will gladly keep you updated.

♥/ the rice family